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It took a lot of careful thought, and after I rehearsed the possible after effects, I think I’m ready to make the biggest mistake of my life. People nowadays usually don’t remember you for the good you’ve done, but rather happily remind you of your “fall from grace”. Unforgettable. So I’ve decided… In order to make my mark and claim victory over the shadows, I have to leave my moral weapon on the shelf and substitute the promise of absolution for a regret that will get me through the halls of THIS worlds corridors.

Why not, Everybody’s doing it!?

I look around. A lot of the people who HAVE, and the people who ARE, are people who’ve lost the solidity in their moral foundation. How many people REALLY even care about what I’m saying? You can’t build a real house on SAND, but most of us don’t have the patience to do the SOLID groundwork it takes to become a true individual masterpiece. Wouldn’t you rather be a shack atop an iron plate in the desert, then be a beach front terrace resting on momentarily calm waters ‘til earths turbulence gives the guarantee of who’s REALLY the master rather than just the masterpiece? I would.

True riches are not determined by sizeable bank accounts, assets, and vast associations; rather, by being a one of a kind pearl in a world full of identical gems. It seems like you meet one brotha, you’ve met them all. I’m sure men could say the same about us. Yet no one pays mind to the ones you don’t OBVIOUSLY see. I’m referring to the ones who’s stellar character is their mark, rather than the folks who enjoy making headlines for successfully fitting their negative stereotype. Yet the ones who make the most “noise” enjoy the tangible effects of living life in FM stereo, while the others take their place in the static of AM. Lost due to bad reception.

Shit! It makes you want to cross over and be apart of the hypocrisy in order to fit in to the status quo. So many people have fallen victim to the world of today, that they’ve forgotten the struggles forgone our people of yesteryear. Would many of us have these opportunities, had we not been afforded them through the fight for liberty? Yes, we’re all free to do as we choose, but why do so many of us choose do the things that come so freely or rather EASY?

Sex, drugs, drinking, etc, seems to breed more opportunity than abstaining to obtain a solid experience. Men nowadays consider our importance to them in their schedule and their roladex, by the things we can do to satisfy them rather than the sincerity of our hearts. Easy. Please don’t forget that hard work garnered us a position of appreciation, yet none of us want to work hard to maintain proper “salvation”.

You don’t have to wear “the cross” right next to your heart, to understand the error in your decisions. Then there are those who understand, yet truly don’t care to pay attention. A lot of people will read this blog and think, “She needs to SHUT the F- Up and get laid already!”. That might very well be true, but the point I’m trying to make for my friends and myself, is we are all at a point of choosing and are no longer undecided. Do you follow? I’m just hoping LESS of ME will deliver more genuine possessions to me, because I’m tired of the compromise.

Yes, I too, am guilty of “falling”, but I try to surround myself with people who extend a hand to help me up. I sin, often, and can guarantee I will sin again. I’m not a square, or a “lame” or “born-again-perfectionist”, I’m just a woman waiting, that KNOWS she deserves more. You see, I’ve arrived! I want the spoils of life; a husband, success, and a family. So I ask you this, why do I have to forget my morals in order to be remembered by you?

Yes, I know, it's all just AM Static.

© A. L. Lewis